Suddenly you got lost in the bottle.
You went full force on the throttle.
Full speed down the hill.
And all you ask for is a re-fill.
You fell down to the bar.
You never do get very far.
One sip and you were done.
And yeah it use to be fun.
But now it’s dark and it’s mean.
You started off as a young teen.
Now a man or supposed to be.
But a hopeless drunk is all I see.
Empty glass so you cause a scene.
It’s too bad you’re out of green.
But isn’t this where you flirt your way.
Tell them you’ll pay them the next day.
A face like yours they wouldn’t say no.
And that’s the reason why I had to go.
Bottom of the bottle is where you are.
Just a drunk living in a bar.
Why do people have to assume.
Or ignore the big elephant in the room.
Why do people judge so fast.
Why can’t they move on from the past.
Why don’t people smile more.
Or hold the door at a local store.
Why don’t we give someone another chance.
Why can’t girls ask the boy to dance.
Why do we discriminate the color of our skin.
Why do we ignore all our sins.
We gave up on sea life and attic too.
We no longer care what we do.
Why is everyone so greedy here.
Losing hope is my biggest fear.
Hope that we can save ourselves.
Put our sins up high on our shelves.
Bring out a smile and a helping hand.
And save this earth from the sea to the land.
You don’t hear my tears on the other end of this phone.
You just hear my calm quiet tone.
You think I’m sniffing from allergies here.
But is actual pain my dear.
I am sad and I am not okay.
I’m alone and don’t know what to say.
I hide from help because of my past.
Their truths turned on me so fast.
Their lies broke me down.
Now trust can not be found.
So I sit here in sorrow on this call.
Aching, breaking, ready to fall.
And you are willing to let me cry.
You are willing to say goodbye.
Because I act strong I know.
I told you myself I was gonna go.
I was gonna hang up and cry.
But that is not me asking for goodbye.
No that is my at of asking for help from you. Because hiding pain is all I know how to do. Mercy must not be asked of me. Strength is all I must be. But everyone needs help sometime. That is why I am writing this rhyme. I am just sad and I am just mad. I don’t know what to do. But I know I want to talk to you.
Goodbyes hurts like a Bitch. They come flying like a fast pitch. But death hurts even more. They never walk back through that door. However, knowing it’s coming is unfathomable to me. A day without them is all I see. Yet they’re standing right here. And all I can show is a pathetic tear. Knowing the date of death is insane. It’s like knowing it’s going to rain. You think you can prepare for it. But you realize you can’t one bit. You say they’ll be in a better place. But then why aren’t we all in this race. Running to get to this better place we speak of. Because I think they belong here with my love. I don’t want them to leave. I don’t want to cry and grieve. I want more days. And to stop counting down these days.
We’d sit here exactly at six every night. If you missed dinner Ma would put up a fight. We ate what she cooked an couldn’t complain. Her meatloaf or stew was always a pain. all six of us sat at this table every night. Dad to my left and mom to my right. A typical family thing to do. But now it’s something new. Now all the kids eat on the go. Our where abouts Dad doesn’t even know. Mom still cooks with hope we’ll come eat. But it’s just her and five empty seats. A family now split in two. dinner at six we no longer do.
I wish I was on the beach in the sand.
With you in one and a beer in the other hand. Listening to nothing but the ocean waves hitting the shore. I want your love to take me on a tour. Show me the moon on the water at night. If it’s cloudy you can be my light. Show me your world under the boards. Sing to me between the cordes. Kiss me under the sun and the stars. Let’s pretend we’re the only ones at the bars. Let’s have a summer love like the books do. I want to see the water crystal blue. Your face with that cute smile. And maybe make me fall in love once in a while. Let’s make this summer ours my dear. Because soon enough September will be near.
I thought me and my friend were fading I thought her boyfriend was degrading.
He took up all her time from me. Our 7 year friendship I no longer see. But it wasn’t him nor I. No it was her silence that said goodbye. You see I put the effort in here. I always asked if she wanted to get a beer. I always asked if she wanted to go out. I use to blame the boy no doubt. But she gave up on me. Now I’m wondering how can this be. She doesn’t ask me to hangout at all. No she rarely even gives me a call. She works a lot that’s true. But isn’t she curious to what I do. Seven years just left behind. My best friend I can no longer find. So tell me what do I do without her around. But I guess that’s answers already found.